Saturday, February 12, 2011

T-minus two hours and counting...

Sitting here in L&D room 211 of Baylor Irving. Two hours away from meeting my 2nd daughter, Olivia Eve Yarmer. All the different doctors have come and done their due diligence of telling us everything that can go wrong and could go wrong with Feliz and the baby, today, next week, or next month. I was just walking back into the room a few minutes ago and as I passed the nurse's station, I hear them talking about Feliz. I know it was her because they mentioned "she was at dialysis this morning, but they sent her here with high blood pressure." The nurse went on to say "I'm surprised she's made it this far." Isn't it amazing how surprised people are with things? Feliz has so much negativity stacked up against her, yet we are surprised to be here. Our God is more powerful and faithful than any obstetrician could ever be. There is a GOOD reason God is always to be capitalized. This IS IT. He's a proper noun. The Properist of nouns! He is mighty and worthy to be praised!

These doctors are so negative and SCARED. But like I keep telling Feliz, whose report will we believe? The only One that matters, God's!

They are saying be ready to have Olivia here for 2-3 months. I can't wait to tell them who's to praise for her coming home in a matter of weeks.

God, I can't wait to sing your praises to everyone I run into.

On behalf of my entire family, Feliz and I thank you for all your fervent and continual prayers throughout this pregnancy and I can't wait for you to all see and meet Olivia Eve!

This will be my last transmission until after I meet her myself. Catch you on the flip side!

Take luck and God Bless!

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Experience is a brutal teacher, but you will learn. My God, you will learn. -C.S. Lewis

That being said, I'm learning a LOT. The last 12 months has been mine and my family's most trying time ever.
In four more days we'll be at the year anniversary of losing my son Zachary Lincoln.
In two more months we'll be at the year anniversary of losing our Dad to his battle with cancer. Correction: Anniversary of him winning his battle with cancer as he is now completely healed and fully alive.
A month after that, Feliz started needing dialysis three days a week to make up for her kidneys failing. In August we found out we were expecting again, and the baby needed cleaner blood more often, so Feliz started taking dialysis four hours, six days a week. It's hard on all of us to be away from Feliz for 24 hours a week. At dialysis Feliz is surrounded by death and sick people. Once a week, someone is carried out of there either deathly sick or sickly dead.

Last week I took Feliz in for a rare infection that can lead to pneumonia and she is still fighting to recover from it.
While there at the hospital with her, my apartment office called to tell me our apartment had flooded due to a pipe bursting two floors above. When it rains it pours. And it was pouring into all but one room of our apartment.

As frustrating as the apartment flooding was, I gave the worries and trouble of it to God just like I do for Feliz's health and healing, Olivia's health and God bringing us through our financial struggles. God is teaching me to truly rest in Him and trust him with everything. Feliz is learning too. She's come a long way in the last 3 years we've been married in her reliance and trust in Him.

I don't know if this is right to say, but I feel Feliz is like Job sometimes and when this is all over God is going to bless her and us exponentially with more than we have ever had.

We are due to have our second girl, Olivia somewhere in the next 1-2 weeks and we couldn't be more excited and more nervous. This week is the same week we lost Zach a year ago and we are starting to get anxious about delivering. If Feliz was over her infection, I think we'd already have her.

I can't wait to write Feliz's entire testimony. It will make a great book and be a mighty testament to God's faithfulness and His miraculous ways. I hope it will touch many lives, but even just one would do.

Yarmer out. God bless.