Experience is a brutal teacher, but you will learn. My God, you will learn. -C.S. Lewis

That being said, I'm learning a LOT. The last 12 months has been mine and my family's most trying time ever.
In four more days we'll be at the year anniversary of losing my son Zachary Lincoln.
In two more months we'll be at the year anniversary of losing our Dad to his battle with cancer. Correction: Anniversary of him winning his battle with cancer as he is now completely healed and fully alive.
A month after that, Feliz started needing dialysis three days a week to make up for her kidneys failing. In August we found out we were expecting again, and the baby needed cleaner blood more often, so Feliz started taking dialysis four hours, six days a week. It's hard on all of us to be away from Feliz for 24 hours a week. At dialysis Feliz is surrounded by death and sick people. Once a week, someone is carried out of there either deathly sick or sickly dead.

Last week I took Feliz in for a rare infection that can lead to pneumonia and she is still fighting to recover from it.
While there at the hospital with her, my apartment office called to tell me our apartment had flooded due to a pipe bursting two floors above. When it rains it pours. And it was pouring into all but one room of our apartment.

As frustrating as the apartment flooding was, I gave the worries and trouble of it to God just like I do for Feliz's health and healing, Olivia's health and God bringing us through our financial struggles. God is teaching me to truly rest in Him and trust him with everything. Feliz is learning too. She's come a long way in the last 3 years we've been married in her reliance and trust in Him.

I don't know if this is right to say, but I feel Feliz is like Job sometimes and when this is all over God is going to bless her and us exponentially with more than we have ever had.

We are due to have our second girl, Olivia somewhere in the next 1-2 weeks and we couldn't be more excited and more nervous. This week is the same week we lost Zach a year ago and we are starting to get anxious about delivering. If Feliz was over her infection, I think we'd already have her.

I can't wait to write Feliz's entire testimony. It will make a great book and be a mighty testament to God's faithfulness and His miraculous ways. I hope it will touch many lives, but even just one would do.

Yarmer out. God bless.